Wednesday, June 17, 2015

The best laid schemes o’ Mice an’ Martha

To a Mouse

BY ROBERT BURNS
On Turning up in Her Nest with the Plough, November, 1785
Wee, sleeket, cowran, tim’rous beastie, 
O, what a panic’s in thy breastie! 
Thou need na start awa sae hasty, 
          Wi’ bickerin brattle! 
I wad be laith to rin an’ chase thee 
          Wi’ murd’ring pattle! 

I’m truly sorry Man’s dominion 
Has broken Nature’s social union, 
An’ justifies that ill opinion, 
          Which makes thee startle, 
At me, thy poor, earth-born companion, 
          An’ fellow-mortal! 

I doubt na, whyles, but thou may thieve; 
What then? poor beastie, thou maun live! 
A daimen-icker in a thrave 
          ’S a sma’ request: 
I’ll get a blessin wi’ the lave, 
          An’ never miss ’t! 

Thy wee-bit housie, too, in ruin! 
It’s silly wa’s the win’s are strewin! 
An’ naething, now, to big a new ane, 
          O’ foggage green! 
An’ bleak December’s winds ensuin, 
          Baith snell an’ keen! 

Thou saw the fields laid bare an’ waste, 
An’ weary Winter comin fast, 
An’ cozie here, beneath the blast, 
          Thou thought to dwell, 
Till crash! the cruel coulter past 
          Out thro’ thy cell. 

That wee-bit heap o’ leaves an’ stibble 
Has cost thee monie a weary nibble! 
Now thou’s turn’d out, for a’ thy trouble, 
          But house or hald, 
To thole the Winter’s sleety dribble, 
          An’ cranreuch cauld! 

But Mousie, thou art no thy-lane, 
In proving foresight may be vain: 
The best laid schemes o’ Mice an’ Men 
          Gang aft agley, 
An’ lea’e us nought but grief an’ pain, 
          For promis’d joy! 

Still, thou art blest, compar’d wi’ me! 
The present only toucheth thee: 
But Och! I backward cast my e’e, 
          On prospects drear! 
An’ forward tho’ I canna see, 
          I guess an’ fear!



my best laid schemes have gone awry. and this poem seems to have more meaning on this reading.  as burns writes, the little mouse is blessed because the present only touches him.  i look to the past and see regret and look to the future and see fear.  i have not finished my thesis and here we are in june, and i still don't have a job.

 and, still, what am i doing?  dragging my feet.  writing about what i should be writing about.  ugh!!!

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

hunting for a job

i have been job hunting for about the last two months. it has not been easy, and i think i'm starting to get worried. i know that God has the right job for me out there...somewhere...but i just wish i knew what that job is going to be. part of me feels like i should take time to enjoy this so called "journey." every application is a new possibility. maybe i will do this for a living, or maybe i will work here eventually. but, overall, i just feel like a loser. yup, that's right. or maybe i should write that i'm a winner at a losing game. i have done some soul searching and i have been honest with myself as far as what i want in a job. but, it all goes out the window when i realize that i just need a job. as i was on my knees the other night saying, "Jesus, I need a job." I felt Him say, "No. You do not need a job. You need me." I was very blessed by that thought and I'm still trusting in Him that he will supply my needs according to His riches in glory. Amen. so for now, i will continue to be in a ready position and continue to expect my blessing. it will be here...sooner rather than later.