Wednesday, June 17, 2015

The best laid schemes o’ Mice an’ Martha

To a Mouse

BY ROBERT BURNS
On Turning up in Her Nest with the Plough, November, 1785
Wee, sleeket, cowran, tim’rous beastie, 
O, what a panic’s in thy breastie! 
Thou need na start awa sae hasty, 
          Wi’ bickerin brattle! 
I wad be laith to rin an’ chase thee 
          Wi’ murd’ring pattle! 

I’m truly sorry Man’s dominion 
Has broken Nature’s social union, 
An’ justifies that ill opinion, 
          Which makes thee startle, 
At me, thy poor, earth-born companion, 
          An’ fellow-mortal! 

I doubt na, whyles, but thou may thieve; 
What then? poor beastie, thou maun live! 
A daimen-icker in a thrave 
          ’S a sma’ request: 
I’ll get a blessin wi’ the lave, 
          An’ never miss ’t! 

Thy wee-bit housie, too, in ruin! 
It’s silly wa’s the win’s are strewin! 
An’ naething, now, to big a new ane, 
          O’ foggage green! 
An’ bleak December’s winds ensuin, 
          Baith snell an’ keen! 

Thou saw the fields laid bare an’ waste, 
An’ weary Winter comin fast, 
An’ cozie here, beneath the blast, 
          Thou thought to dwell, 
Till crash! the cruel coulter past 
          Out thro’ thy cell. 

That wee-bit heap o’ leaves an’ stibble 
Has cost thee monie a weary nibble! 
Now thou’s turn’d out, for a’ thy trouble, 
          But house or hald, 
To thole the Winter’s sleety dribble, 
          An’ cranreuch cauld! 

But Mousie, thou art no thy-lane, 
In proving foresight may be vain: 
The best laid schemes o’ Mice an’ Men 
          Gang aft agley, 
An’ lea’e us nought but grief an’ pain, 
          For promis’d joy! 

Still, thou art blest, compar’d wi’ me! 
The present only toucheth thee: 
But Och! I backward cast my e’e, 
          On prospects drear! 
An’ forward tho’ I canna see, 
          I guess an’ fear!



my best laid schemes have gone awry. and this poem seems to have more meaning on this reading.  as burns writes, the little mouse is blessed because the present only touches him.  i look to the past and see regret and look to the future and see fear.  i have not finished my thesis and here we are in june, and i still don't have a job.

 and, still, what am i doing?  dragging my feet.  writing about what i should be writing about.  ugh!!!

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

hunting for a job

i have been job hunting for about the last two months. it has not been easy, and i think i'm starting to get worried. i know that God has the right job for me out there...somewhere...but i just wish i knew what that job is going to be. part of me feels like i should take time to enjoy this so called "journey." every application is a new possibility. maybe i will do this for a living, or maybe i will work here eventually. but, overall, i just feel like a loser. yup, that's right. or maybe i should write that i'm a winner at a losing game. i have done some soul searching and i have been honest with myself as far as what i want in a job. but, it all goes out the window when i realize that i just need a job. as i was on my knees the other night saying, "Jesus, I need a job." I felt Him say, "No. You do not need a job. You need me." I was very blessed by that thought and I'm still trusting in Him that he will supply my needs according to His riches in glory. Amen. so for now, i will continue to be in a ready position and continue to expect my blessing. it will be here...sooner rather than later.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

The Countdown Begins: 83 days

i have 83 days to get a thesis together. OMG!!!! i am freaking out and that is why i decided to blog-it-out instead. what is my thesis about, you might ask? Ah…that is top secret until i publish it least you steal my award winning ideas. :) let's just say that it is groundbreaking for now. HA!!! if i finish it by April 1, that it will be groundbreaking for sure. with that deadline in mind, i set out to be industrious and studious today. i worked, worked, worked as much as i could. i am hoping for a lot more days like today. on another note, i sent my Abuela Nico flowers today. not for her birthday or anniversary, but just because i decided that i wanted to send her flowers. she is 102 years young. can you believe it? my mom told me that on new year's eve she was dressed very nicely with matching gold colored sweater and beret and some flats "like the young girls use" with rhinestones on them. when deciding which skirt to wear, she decided against a black one with buttons because according to her it makes her look fat! i laughed so much when i heard that. i also thought, "oh my goodness!! if i live to be 102 years old and i'm still worried about my weight, just …" i can't finish that sentence out of respect for my beloved grandma, but you get the gist. until next time, here's looking at you!!!

Friday, April 25, 2014

she's on fire

have you ever inspired someone? i have. apparently, i inspired my cousin to kick my derriere something awful. how did i inspire her? well, i ran a 1/2 marathon in november 2010. she ran a half-marathon in november 2013. but, she didn't stop there…she ran another 1/2 marathon in december 2013. but, she didn't stop there…she ran another half-marathon in march 2014. but, she didn't stop there…she ran the austin 10/20 in April 2014. i have officially been given the "what for" by my prima. and let me just say, it sucks!!! what to do?

Why the funny name?

my mother calls me her tortuguita because i have been in school FOREVER!!! i started college at the ripe old age of 32 and i'm still in college at the rotten age of 41 1/2. i have since received a bachelor's degree, worked for two years in the public school system*, resigned from the public school system*, and now i'm continuing my studying towards my master's degree. hence, the name tortuguita. we shall see what things may come… *perhaps a future blog post